Year 2 Week 35 Day 1

So, a theme for my life is going on again. Starting over.

I'll post the numbers this week so you can see the kind of bum I have been over the last month or so.

Knowing and doing, the classic "do as I say, not as I do" you once got from Mom and Dad, but it's really twisted when you do it to yourself. I do believe there are a number of obese folks who just don't know why they are fat, they are literally ignorant of food and calories and exercise and then some are figuratively ignorant in that they understand diet and exercise but they don't apply that knowledge to themselves. I hate those people, I am those people.

You know the ones, they've tried every diet, pill, drink, and super secret program to lose weight. They spend a fortune on exercise equipment or have the gym key dangling on the keychain but the equipment has dust or dirty laundry on it and the gym key gets used to open boxes from Amazon.com (not a sponsor). They're the people who can tell you calories and diet theories and all the nonsense like I spout here from time to time.

Like Christians who go to church on Sunday talking about love and forgiveness, then go to a rally on Tuesday spewing hate and stabbing folks in the neck because they look different, diet people follow many types of faith. Some only pray when they really want something, like fitting into a dress or looking good for that high school reunion and they are faithful for a short time. Others fall on and off the wagon binging one week and devoutly following a diet the next. A very few find permanent solutions, but they aren't from fads and rarely from the divine intervention of doctors and lap bands. Eventually all successful people find something to hinge on that really matters.

Ironically some find God, others realize their lives are more important than a cupcake because of wife and children, and some just look in the mirror and face themselves and say 'no more'.

I don't think I am any of those people. I'm not finding God since the whole idea of God is simple mythology, the only important thing for life is just trying to outlive my Mother so I can see to her ending better than my Dad's, and looking at myself in the mirror generally leads to maniacal laughter that might one day be clinical insanity.

So I cling to "One Week, One Pound" even when it doesn't work this week or that week because it is simple and it is true. Just break down everything and focus on the goal, losing one pound a week. That's roughly one hundred and four pounds in two years. That's an amazing number on its own, but when you factor in a four pound week here and there you can really see results. My issue is finding the food, exercise and motivation balance to keep it up.

The older I get the less I do. In part that's a financial constraint and in part I've come to realize I have no passion for the things in my life. Worse yet, I have no sense of where I might find something to be passionate about. It's not like I have to keep working to put food on the table for a wife and three kids. I haven't quite failed at anything yet, but I've been damned close for years. Maybe you need to really fail to get to something better. Not many people get to the top without failing, but on the flip side lots of people are on the bottom because all they do is fail. Most folks are dog-paddling in the middle though, not failing but never quite succeeding.

What to do about it? Hell if I know.

Here are this week's numbers (that might explain the philosophical tangent this week):

Weights and Measures:
	Weight	Blood P.	Hips	Gut	Chest	Neck	Bicep	Pulse
End Goal	200.00	110/70	38.00	36.00	42.00	16.00	18.00	60.00
8/16/2010	306.20	133/82	47.00	53.00	53.50	18.50	17.00	72.00
8/30/2010	310.40	157/99	47.50	53.75	54.75	18.50	16.75	77.00
Change	4.20	+24/+17	0.50	0.75	1.25	-	(0.25)	5.00
To Goal:	(110.40)	-47/-29	(9.50)	(17.75)	(12.75)	(2.50)	1.25	(17.00)

 

Yep, that bad. Add to it four days of weights with no cardio and multiple it over the last month or so and that is what you end up with, another year older and more obese.

Still have 30 2 40, that's thirty days until I turn forty years old, so my best hope now is to push under 300 by then and focus on the 1W1P concepts.

If at first you fail, just keep trying, who cares besides you?

Later,